Mixed Feeling

I submitted my requirements for training at Davao Medical Center last Monday and I will start my work on May 15 - September 8. Thinking about it makes me ambivalent because I really dont know what to expect and if I am ready for that big responsibility to deliver quality care to your clients. The big question is "Can I stay long in the hospital?" or would I resign on my first month of work. Hahah. Lets see about that?

However, one thing that I am thrilled about is my new white uniform. I could imagine that I am walking along the hospital with my new white uniform, it seems to be a fashion statement than working in a hospital. Sometimes I also miss wearing white uniform but I would prefer a scrub suit now because of summer season. Moreover, I am also thinking about the nursing students who will be under my supervision, its flattering because to think about it, I was once a nursing student. Looking at them would reminish the old times both good and bad memories.

In addition, there is one thing that bothers me about my stay in Davao. Its my living expenses which seems to be more than when I had my review even though I live in the humblest lifestyle and trying to save a money although its really hard to live and work in Davao in P1000/week allowance considering the food, transporation and simple liesures like internet and chat. In fact, since February I haven't watched any movies at the cinemas. I felt that its time for me to earn money for my own but there are no staff posiitons available in fact we have to pay the hospital to get a training. 

My future plans after I conclude my training at DMC is perhaps to find a work as a clinical instructor which have a better pay or apply a work in Middle east countries like Kuwait or Saudi Arabia with the help of God.